First Chapter - Why and what

It took me 35 years. Or should I say I am still learning how to cope with insecurities and finding my self worth.

It started early in my life. And it all comes back to the realization that I was not "normal" as my buddies from school. I had a lazy left eye. And as soon as I figured it out I did not look like my friends I started thinking low of myself.

At young age you start asking yourself why you do not look like your friends. Why you look different. And by the time you start wondering that you begin to want to hide, so you are not gonna be seen because you are different.

And the bubbly toddler became a very shy and introverted kid. Was I bullied? Oh hell, yes. Maybe that is why I decided to go unnoticeable everywhere I go, until these days. But, will I let this one aspect define my whole life? Will I still let it define my life until I die? Do I want that for me?

It is clearly on my way. My professional life, specially. Is it the only reason? Most definitely not. But as I enter the journey of self discovery I will share defining moments in my life that might have harmed me more that I could ever predict.

What I want with this blog is to become a better person. Not for the world, because I am aware I am a very nice person, but I wanna be better for myself. 

I wanna be better to appreciate more and more life and its ups and downs, reminding myself that certain things should not be faced as defining points if you do not let them to.

I will be sharing books, videos, songs or anything that will be helping myself along this journey.

I will also link my fave exercises taught by some really good people on youtube.

Thanks for reading.

Maria